Dream House

Part of dreaming that causes me little sleep is the fact that at one place ou know your dream has to smash into reality. My house is a old one. I am a novice practical guy, learning as I go. This makes any plans very very painstaking. I can dream big, but getting the dream from paper to reality is a slow painful process. Kinda translates to other parts of life, I think. I have in the past found it very dfficult to dream big. Why? Because dreams can make old wounds sting, they can come when all obstacles appear too big and intrusive, making the bible passage, "hope deferred makes the heart sick". Its true! A broken heart needs to learn to dream again. SInce my fathers death, I have felt like the canopy on my tent was ripped off. Leaving life more vulnerable and exposed, I have fought the desperate feeling that life is pretty lonesome. But what I also noticed is that I have this need to be a kid. If my father was not around, then whose kid am I?
Being a kid, a child means to know you are taken care of, that you are somehow going to be caught if you fall down. To have someone who cares for your wounds and has the resources to help you out when you are overwhelmed.
That being said, my spirit, or heart or whatever needs to be able to dream with the covering of my father. KNowing that reality gives me peace. I have to keep my head grounded in this reality as the Father I have in my Creator is where I must transfer that displaced security. Death really confronts the hearts dreaming mechanism.
I am going to dream as I grow in this reality. And our house can only benefit from that!

Harry Potter

I think that instead of the live-action movies, that are terribly rushed and miss much of the charm of the books, that like the "Clone Wars" animated series for Star Wars, Harry Potter should be made into an animated series. It would be amazing to watch it unfold as this kind of series as it would be able to refelt the cover art.

Someone hire this man!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Review

Ok, so I admit it, after reading the last of the 7 books. I am a big huge kid. I love anything well done for kids. I celebrate Disneyland and think it will be much like heaven.
I actually at first felt like Harry Potter was probably very evil. Wizardry, encantations, potions, the DARK ARTS, all of it seemed wrong. Then a friend whom I respect and loves books challenged me to try out the first book, "Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone". I did, and i was instantly hooked!
Each of these books were written in such a creative and detailed way. Book 7, the "Deathly Hallows", marked the end of my beloved obsession. Well, sort of.
Without giv away anything inthe book, let me just say that I ewas expecting a letdown for the last book, because as things need wrapping up, I knew I would most likely feel bogged down with boring end of series melodrama. But instead I was treated with an race to the end, adventure after adventure until at last, things were explained quite satisfactorily. At one point, the bible was used as to bring out of the main themes of the series: Love is powerful and overcomes all, even if it costs you everything. I think that leaves enough ambiguity for those still wanting to read the book.

Sleeplessness Becomes Who?

Here I sit at 6:30 am, up since 2 am with my son screaming his lungs out for over an hour. Then I can't sleep and I realize I am experiencing insomnia. Up since then. Boing. Damn that coffee I had. But what is really obothering me and keeping me up? My house. Unemployment that happens every summer for people like me who are school year dependant. My own brain that ticks away at all of lifes problems at 3AM. Oh how I hate 3 am . It taunts me. I always regret looking at the clock then. Those red LED numbers staring at me.
My 2 year old hates me to rest or sleep, I am convinced of it. I prayed over him. I prayed that whatever hpened in the womb to make him so restless at night woul be healed. Hopefully it sticks.